7.12.2008

The Element of Surprise

"You were not part of the plan," Musicman absently remarked this morning driving me home this morning. "But, your best element is surprise."

I think I asked something stupid about whether or not he liked surprises. I had also just asked the stupid question of whether or not he would return my calls in three weeks when I return from Scotland. I'm not good at this. Clearly. As much as Musicman has been taken by surprise, I have been too. This is most unexpected -- but it's sweet and romantic and wildly exciting.

I divulged a secret to him last night -- something I don't share about myself ever. Or nearly ever. And yet, I thought at that moment that it was important for him to know. And it was. He needed to know this. Not for him, but because I needed him to know it. Of course, the response is what scared me. He could have responded in any number of ways. But, when I did the girly thing of asking him what he was thinking (which he does more often than I do), he told me that the strangest thing was that it didn't scare him at all. I replied: "Well, that freaks me out." At least I'm honest -- but I'm totally shocked by the welcome surprise that this boy has offered. I cherished dinner and drinks with him last night. I loved watching him on stage and snuggling with him afterward. It's a surprise. It's all a great surprise. And now, I have that stupid girly grin again. Sigh.

6 comments:

Teri said...

You do realize that I am highly likely to ask you, in the middle of the night as we go skinny dipping at my favorite beach, what that secret is?

I thought I'd give you fair warning.

(about both the asking and the middle-of-the-night skinny dipping....)

Pastor Peters said...

i had no idea that we were going skinny dipping in scotland. so i shouldn't pack a bathing suit?

and yes, i'll tell you.

Jeez said...

and also the three weeks will probably fly by in Scotland and will stroll by very slowly in the states?!

And that secret...well, we all wanna know now...

Songbird said...

Have a wonderful trip! Anticipating a reunion can be highly romantic...

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LittleMary said...

good for you girl. love to hear you have a girly face going on right now. have a wonderful trip my dear. will you be blogging? it would be a shame to not hear about your adventures.