I'm getting a massage tomorrow. I feel like that says a lot about how I am emotionally, spiritually and physically. I really need this massage. My entire back is a knot. Thank you colleague on medical leave and ungrateful congregation who is driving me insane.
I went on a rant in my kitchen this week. Not to myself. I wouldn't tell you that here. This was to a friend who was over for dinner. She asked me about something else -- something related to the work we do (though she's not clergy) and I went off the deep end. I said lots of things about why I feel so disconnected from this ministry.
Thanks be to God. There is movement. Paperwork went to the Big Cheese (in our non-hierarchical tradition where the cheese just stinks) today. With God's abundant grace, we should be live soon. Like next week soon. And then, I can fantasize even more about leaving these people in the dust. I mean, I love them. They're just driving me nuts. We need some distance. Big time.